Today I have my petscan at 2pm. No, its not for my pets. Its a diagnostic imaging exam that shows where cancer might be hiding in the cells of a person's body. Fun, right? Ugh. Between you and me I am feeling pretty nervous about it. I have had a few of these exams before and it really is no big deal. Lay in a loud, confining tunnel for about an hour while contrast is injected and images are taken. Its what these images might show that frighten me the most. I am apprehensive to start chemotherapy again knowing that its going to make me feel like... well, shit- sorry mom. You wouldnt step into the ring to fight against someone who you knew was going to beat you senseless would you? Thats kind of how chemo takes on your body. It beats you senseless and destroys not only the bad, but some of the good as well.
In life you never get the answers before the big test so I don't know why i'm expecting that to be the case now. Nothing I can do about it & whatever will be, will be. I'm just going to pretend like I am not scared and who knows... maybe by 2 o'clock I won't be anymore. ;-) #scaredshitless #thiscancerthingsuxs #keepingthefaith
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